Sunday, September 15, 2013


Bear was right.

I've never seen one of those before, at least not mine.  This pic doesn't include the first three I did because they were freebie ones that expired in 2011.  The directions were pictoral and didn't say how long to hold it in the urine or how long to wait.  They also had a second line on them, but I didn't trust it.  Bear wouldn't let me go to WalMart at 3:30 this morning when I realized those were all I had, so I used those three first and, when they were positive, put a lid on the container I was using while Bear and I raced to WalMart for fresh tests.  On this one, the second line turned blue immediately.  Forget "results in 2 minutes!"

I'm shocked  I didn't think I could get pregnant.  But I'm also really scared.  I know how many pregnancies end in miscarriage, and I'm so afraid.  I'm trying to relax and appreciate that at least right now, in this moment, I am pregnant.  But I am still really guarded, because I know it's a LONG road from here to a take home baby.

But I'm farther than I've ever been, farther than I thought possible.  And whatever happens, I have that now.

One final thing: a HUGE thank you to Lisa!!!  Your comment gave me comfort that I really needed when I looked at my phone before testing this morning.  So thank you, thank you, thank you.


  1. Woohoo and congratulations! Yes, it is just the beginning, but try to take each day as it comes and do what you need to stay as relaxed and sane as you can. All the best!

  2. OMG! I clicked over and wow! Congrats girl! That's one beautiful pee stick! I've never had one of these before, but I kind of know that it's hard to not worry about things. But like what Lisa said, take it one day at a time.

  3. Happy ICLW!! and congrats congrats congrats!!

  4. Happy ICLW even though I missed the deadline to be on the list. I am newly pregnant too. I have my heartbeat U/S tomorrow and I'm terrified. We're so close I would love to follow you.

  5. That is a BEAUTIFUL picture!!!!!!! I understand the long road from a bfp to bringing baby home, keep positive, take care of your body, don't push so hard (your last post) and ENJOY! This is so exciting! I am going to be following your journey! Happy ILC Week!