Saturday, November 30, 2013
Stunned and in Denial
No, it's not Penguin, Penguin's fine. It's my mom. I talked to her last night, and it turns out she's kinda been avoiding me because she had news she didn't want to tell me. There's a medical problem that I've known about that had seemed to be stable for several years. Now, the doctors are using the C word. But they don't know for sure. They need to do a biopsy to see. But they can't do the biopsy yet because Mom isn't cleared for surgery. Apparently, on top of everything else, she has an enlarged heart, and because of that, they can't clear her for surgery. When she first went in about this problem, the doctors gave her Tramodol. For those who aren't familiar, it's a nonaddictive lightweight pain medication. As of earlier this week, she's now on oxys every 4 hours. That scares me. I'm kinda bouncing back and forth between scared and not feeling like it's real. I know people lose their parents at this age or well before, but even though I know her health hasn't been great, I didn't expect this.